Being back in Lincoln this week has reminded me how incredibly blessed I was to have such an amazing summer.
Missing camp terribly.
Missing camp terribly. Thursday, August 26, 2010
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Sittin' loose in the saddle [trying]
One of the greatest pieces of advice I have ever heard came from my friend, Becca.
We were chatting about my future. For those of you who don't know...I don't really like thinking about the future. I'm not in love with where I'm at in life right now either, though, so sometimes I want to think about the future. Hmm...tricky. anyway...
"Sit loose in the saddle." is what Becca told me to do.
I don't have my perfect life plan mapped out. I don't have a specific goal in mind. I can't say that I've ever been one of those girls who could picture themselves working here, marrying him and naming their kids such and such. I've always thought that was rather odd..but then I suppose my expectations aren't too high, right? I'm not completely clueless as to what I want to do in life, but I don't have any specific ideas.
I have complete trust in God that He will reveal to me what it is I am supposed to do, but sometimes (like now) I am completely impatient and frustrated.
I feel like I am wasting my time sitting at school studying things that I will never, ever use in my life. (Spanish has the potential to be useful, though) Then I get even more frustrated when I have to deal with the homework and trying to get good grades for classes that will never be of use to me.
I need to keep reminding myself to "sit loose in the saddle" and just take life one day at a time. I don't have the perfect plan mapped out, but God sure does. And it is guaranteed that His is a lot better than mine.
PS--Thanks, Becca :)
We were chatting about my future. For those of you who don't know...I don't really like thinking about the future. I'm not in love with where I'm at in life right now either, though, so sometimes I want to think about the future. Hmm...tricky. anyway...
"Sit loose in the saddle." is what Becca told me to do.
I don't have my perfect life plan mapped out. I don't have a specific goal in mind. I can't say that I've ever been one of those girls who could picture themselves working here, marrying him and naming their kids such and such. I've always thought that was rather odd..but then I suppose my expectations aren't too high, right? I'm not completely clueless as to what I want to do in life, but I don't have any specific ideas.
I have complete trust in God that He will reveal to me what it is I am supposed to do, but sometimes (like now) I am completely impatient and frustrated.
I feel like I am wasting my time sitting at school studying things that I will never, ever use in my life. (Spanish has the potential to be useful, though) Then I get even more frustrated when I have to deal with the homework and trying to get good grades for classes that will never be of use to me.
I need to keep reminding myself to "sit loose in the saddle" and just take life one day at a time. I don't have the perfect plan mapped out, but God sure does. And it is guaranteed that His is a lot better than mine.
PS--Thanks, Becca :)
Current thoughts
Current thoughts:
--Why do I always double book myself? I have days where I have absolutely nothing scheduled, then I have days where I have to be 3 places at once. You can tell I'm still getting back into the swing of things.
--Putting tv episodes online is seriously the greatest idea since sliced bread. I don't have cable so I am happy I can use the internet to catch up on my shows, and kill my boredom.
--Why is it that when I imagined my new life, I pictured myself as being very productive? Who was I kidding? (Don't worry Mom, my homework for today is done!) I just mean that I pictured myself doing homework, working out, reading and crafting a lot more than I have been. I guess I have only lived here for 4 days, though.
--I am incredibly excited for this weekend. I get to see Paisley. I get to see Lifehouse. I get to Lindsey, one of my very favorite people from camp. What a jam packed 3 days.
That's all for now.
--Why do I always double book myself? I have days where I have absolutely nothing scheduled, then I have days where I have to be 3 places at once. You can tell I'm still getting back into the swing of things.
--Putting tv episodes online is seriously the greatest idea since sliced bread. I don't have cable so I am happy I can use the internet to catch up on my shows, and kill my boredom.
--Why is it that when I imagined my new life, I pictured myself as being very productive? Who was I kidding? (Don't worry Mom, my homework for today is done!) I just mean that I pictured myself doing homework, working out, reading and crafting a lot more than I have been. I guess I have only lived here for 4 days, though.
--I am incredibly excited for this weekend. I get to see Paisley. I get to see Lifehouse. I get to Lindsey, one of my very favorite people from camp. What a jam packed 3 days.
That's all for now.
Monday, August 23, 2010
Bathroom art.
Discovered this in a bathroom while exploring downtown with a good friend.
I just so happened to be with the person who needed to see this the most.
Life is funny like that.
Seriously, when?
Go have fun, people.
I just so happened to be with the person who needed to see this the most.
Life is funny like that.
Seriously, when?Go have fun, people.
Goodbye Summer.
Summer is officially over.
School started today, I had Spanish and astronomy this morning.
Two awkward moments...
It never fails that the only time I get called on is when I don't know the answer. I bet that was a great first impression on my new prof. Whoops..
Number two:
I walked into my 11:30 lecture at 11:29. (I hate being late, but my class before is across campus) I had to climb over people to find a seat...then, I sit down and try to bring up my desk from between the seats..I could hardly move it because the guy next to me was um..rather large and blocking my desk. Needless to say, that was very awkward and I felt really bad, then I was sitting through class wondering how I was going to get out of my desk without creating another awkward moment. I ended up leaving the desk down and just escaped. Hmm..
Yesterday:
I went to church, then Sharon came over and we went to the pool and made a Target run so I could get curtains. The white walls were killing me..
Then, Jordan came to Lincoln and stayed with me!
We watched Steel Magnolias and pigged out on ice cream and popcorn. Shocking, right?
She also helped me decorate and rearrange my new apartment, it's looking a million times better. (Thanks, Jord!)
Now I need to finish unpacking, go get school supplies and start homework.
I hate the sound of that word.
Adios, amigos.
School started today, I had Spanish and astronomy this morning.
Two awkward moments...
It never fails that the only time I get called on is when I don't know the answer. I bet that was a great first impression on my new prof. Whoops..
Number two:
I walked into my 11:30 lecture at 11:29. (I hate being late, but my class before is across campus) I had to climb over people to find a seat...then, I sit down and try to bring up my desk from between the seats..I could hardly move it because the guy next to me was um..rather large and blocking my desk. Needless to say, that was very awkward and I felt really bad, then I was sitting through class wondering how I was going to get out of my desk without creating another awkward moment. I ended up leaving the desk down and just escaped. Hmm..
Yesterday:
I went to church, then Sharon came over and we went to the pool and made a Target run so I could get curtains. The white walls were killing me..
Then, Jordan came to Lincoln and stayed with me!
We watched Steel Magnolias and pigged out on ice cream and popcorn. Shocking, right?
She also helped me decorate and rearrange my new apartment, it's looking a million times better. (Thanks, Jord!)
Now I need to finish unpacking, go get school supplies and start homework.
I hate the sound of that word.
Adios, amigos.
Friday, August 20, 2010
Summer Summary
Wow. I really stink at updating. Everyday I keep wanting to update on my daily activities but I tell myself I can't do that until I update you on the rest of my summer...which frankly will take forever and probably just make me depressed that it's over. So...
In a (somewhat long) nutshell:
Working at camp was the absolute best thing I have ever done in my life.
I learned so much about life and about myself.
My faith grew tremendously.
I realized that everything you need is in Creation and in people.
I loved my life without technology.
I made amazing friends.
I learned to live a lot simpler.
I tried new things such as high ropes and horses.
(I will never get on another horse as long as I live, but hey I tried.)
I grew so much and became a lot more secure with who I am.
I experienced many "God moments" and constantly stood in awe of Creation.
Now camp was not always perfect,
there was a not-so-wonderful situation towards the end that I thought had just ruined the whole summer, but without that experience, I would not have grown quite as much. and to be honest, I realized that had this "situation" not been there before camp, I wouldn't have even applied to work there.
Yes, I did the unthinkable. I followed a boy. [insert sigh of disapproval here.]
Obviously, it didn't end up working out. (which I am okay with now)
But..had I not done that, I would not have had this life changing summer.
Funny how God works sometimes, isn't it?
He knew I'd fall for His trick of putting this person in my life at that time.
Well Big Guy, you were right..again.
I am so thankful for every situation I went through this summer, good or bad.
Basically, I will never be the same.
At least that is my hope, I don't ever want to forget what I have learned or the friendships that I made.
As my boss says, we were on a "spiritual high" this summer.
It scares me to death that I can feel myself coming off of this "high", but I am so thankful to have a few camp friends in Lincoln to remind me of my amazing summer.
Not exactly the detailed posts of what I planned, but now it's done and you can expect daily updates again!
In a (somewhat long) nutshell:
Working at camp was the absolute best thing I have ever done in my life.
I learned so much about life and about myself.
My faith grew tremendously.
I realized that everything you need is in Creation and in people.
I loved my life without technology.
I made amazing friends.
I learned to live a lot simpler.
I tried new things such as high ropes and horses.
(I will never get on another horse as long as I live, but hey I tried.)
I grew so much and became a lot more secure with who I am.
I experienced many "God moments" and constantly stood in awe of Creation.
Now camp was not always perfect,
there was a not-so-wonderful situation towards the end that I thought had just ruined the whole summer, but without that experience, I would not have grown quite as much. and to be honest, I realized that had this "situation" not been there before camp, I wouldn't have even applied to work there.
Yes, I did the unthinkable. I followed a boy. [insert sigh of disapproval here.]
Obviously, it didn't end up working out. (which I am okay with now)
But..had I not done that, I would not have had this life changing summer.
Funny how God works sometimes, isn't it?
He knew I'd fall for His trick of putting this person in my life at that time.
Well Big Guy, you were right..again.
I am so thankful for every situation I went through this summer, good or bad.
Basically, I will never be the same.
At least that is my hope, I don't ever want to forget what I have learned or the friendships that I made.
As my boss says, we were on a "spiritual high" this summer.
It scares me to death that I can feel myself coming off of this "high", but I am so thankful to have a few camp friends in Lincoln to remind me of my amazing summer.
Not exactly the detailed posts of what I planned, but now it's done and you can expect daily updates again!
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